I guess i should write when i cant sleep
and pray when i cant think
but what do i do
when i cant escape the thoughts of you.....
Crazy...How I remain sane. The Life and times of V.Dier.
I guess i should write when i cant sleep
Expectations lead to disappointment
underneath it all
Haven't came back to this old place since YOU found it...
I hope I have enough to keep you
I been gone, so I figure yall missing me like crazy.... lol
PS Yea I know thats the shirt I had on in my New Year's post but dammit I think its my new favorite shirt.....at least it was clean............... i think lol
lies and bullshit that I don't need is all u feedin me. so fuck you and fuck off. i don't need you tho i will admit i did want you but what do you give me, nothing and a whole lot of it, by the time you realize what the fuck is standing in front of you, i will be gone. You never miss your water til your well runs dry that shit is the truth. Man i am so fuckin pissed as if you couldn't tell. Why? WHy? WHY? the fuck do you volunteer lies if you lie about the lil shit then its guaranteed that you will lie about anything. You lil lying fucking bitch!
lol i ain't walk away from shit, spent the night, got breakfast, took pictures.....
Thats all I been doing. I mean its time for finals, but who the hell even feels like going to class. I mean its like I fell into a slump I just wanna drink and hang out with friends, since I haven't had much luck with my romantic life, it sux cow balls, so forget it one of my homies had a bday so we shut down the VIP....
So last night I was watching the game wit my homie when he gets a call from his white homies invitin us out for drinks at a bar, I was already in heiniken heaven before we left so shit yall know I aint one to turn down no drinks, so we hop in the whip and drive to meet the homies. It was my first time meeting them but to my suprise they were white (no problem i ain't racist or no shit like that) we headed to The Village to bar hop a lil. O yea I dont like puttin names on the blog so here is the break down of the crew :
Short white dude drives and he is already pissed cuz he was rooting for the texans and they lost so he was drivin all crazy. We make it to the bar and have to beg the bouncer to let us in cuz tall black homie lost his wallet and all he had was a photocopy of his ID . So if you are thinking like me you wanna know HOW THE FUCK DO YOU LOSE YOUR WALLET BUT HAVE A PHOTOCOPY OF YOUR ID? idk but anyway we get in and in normal white people fashion the white guys buy all the drinks (shots of yager, heinekens, and a shot called Undercurrent) o yea when i asked whats in the undercurrent lil short white dude tells me and then was like it taste like kool-aid....my thoughts"cuz i'm black i gotta like koolaid?" but shit he paying for it and I do like kool aid and that shot was good as hell. I get fucked up I start chilling, but big white dude was like you to quiet dude gotta get u talkin, so we find this attactcive black lady (quite a task in a white bar) and the convo was a lil something like this.
Big White dude: hey my friend here wants to buy u a drink
Labels: Suicide attempts
Well after leaving work I went to go visit a special someone ended up sleepin over and not making it home til like 4 am. i had a great time for the first time since my break up with my ex it seems i may actually be letting someone in.....scary... i know ..... i once read in a book that love is like skydiving, when you jump out that plane there is no guarantee that other person is going to jump out behind you but in the worst case scenario you jump out the plane look down on the ground and see the other person never even got in the plane....a real joykill but thats the same thing about love. we r so interested because its new and exciting and we can try to predict the outcome but are never too sure, i guess if love was routine no one would want to be in it. being honest this blogging thing is kind of a relief just sharing my thoughts with the world secretly hoping that no one will look at it but me and the select few that I invite into my life. Feels like this week could take forever to get by but boy o boy I can't wait til Friday. I plan on having a great weekend, doin what, absolutley nothing.... just relaxing and having peace of mind. but we all know thats subject to change at any time with the way my life usually is....hectic. I know so far that i have to go to the barber on wednesday so i can be fresh for thursday night at LEVEL, i must inform you that Houston Downtown nightlife ROCKS!!!! lol i plan on partyin hard. um ok well i guesss since i am at work i should actually be doin somethin... i'll get back to this blog thing soon enough....
Never blogged before. but been taking a look at some blogs online. hey. these peoples lives are pretty lame if u ask me. but you didn't. oh well. i'm telling you anyway. I guess this creates a space where I can be me saying what I want to say kinda like my live journal. wow. yea it is the world is now in trouble i can share my thoughts with complete strangers, who you never know, may feel the same way I do. right now I am sitting at work on a Sunday, obviously not working but what the hell i'm still getting paid for it. this is kinda surreal I never thought I would have this much to say to complete strangers. i guess when my significant other isn't responding to my texts in time then what the hell i'll invite strangers to share my world, uh oh does this mean i'm having a net affair i hope not cuz i'm really not the cheating type I promise (scout's honor). lol. um i dont know what all i should share with you all and what i shouldn't the net can be a dangerous place. ya know. so we'll play it cool for now I wont tell u all my business until i am sure u can handle it. ya know sometimes the truth is just as ugly as homemade sin.